The Web That Is My Own

I'm putting myself in a time out.

I normally reserve time out for my kids, but i'm actually feeling
like a child myself right now. I want to scream, I want to throw
myself to the floor and kick my legs, throw my arms, and do what
every other child does to seemly get out all of their frustration.
My kids are driving me insane, just listening to my husband talk
drives me up the wall, and I currently have the patience of a three
year old. The reason for my regression to the 'terrible twos'
attitude? I don't even know. I'm frustrated with the state that my
life is in right, and frustrated that I don't seem to have any
control whatsoever over my immediate future. Someone else right now
is getting to decide the path that my life is going to take over the
next couple of years, and they seem to be taking their sweet-assed
time telling me their decision. Maybe that's why I feel so much like
a child....in essence, i'm getting treated like one.

I'm an educated women, I make good decisions, and have done well with
my life....yes, it has taken a different turn than I thought it
would, but overall I think I have made good choices. So I hate the
feeling of being out of control, and someone who doesn't know me from
a hole in the wall has it all.

So, i'm going to stomp around, i'm going to cry, i'm going to lay on
the floor in the middle of the room and refuse to pick up my
toys....well, that is, until the kids wake up from their nap and I
have to put my 'adult' face back on.